旁观者清

很多事情没有所谓的对与错，只是立场不一样。

真话

冠冕堂皇的话听多了， 有时真的分不出哪一句真，哪一句假。

太天真？

有人曾说过我太容易相信人。或许吧，虽然我不觉得自己太天真。事事都要猜忌怀疑，人人都要小心防备。做人这样子不会太累吗？同样的，那种成天争强好胜的人，总是得想着如何踩着别人爬往高处。这又有什么意义呢？

举棋不定

就是心太软。
所谓人不为己，天诛地灭
有时候或许应该为了自己自私一点。

Life’s short

踏入社会，开始第一份工作至今已有一年。这一年，经历了很多，也成长了很多。而我这一年最大的感悟就是健康真的很重要。

过了一年，也大概想清楚了自己想做什么，喜欢什么。或者应该说更确定自己不想做什么，不喜欢什么。接下就是决定下一步该怎么走。

有时想想其实自己还蛮幸运的。

要学会调整心态。

摸索中

有些人天生就是乐天派。

我不乐观，但我也从来不觉得自己是个悲观的人。

可是这几个月来，却总是觉得自己好像什么都做不好。

很讨厌这种感觉。

也很讨厌那种仍在摸索中的感觉。

就好像悬浮在空中的木偶，只能在空中打转。

不清楚自己下一幕该怎么演，不知道下一步该往哪踏出。

我知道自己不擅长文书类的程序。

是我的不足。

不熟，不会，就要学。

这我懂, 可是又偏偏一直犯错。

很不甘心。

I am an e-shopaholic.

Online shopping can be so addictive.

The 宅女 in me loves the idea of getting clothes delivered to your doorstep without braving the throngs of people at the mall or jostling with people in the queue for the fitting room.

And I have never been the kind of girl who enjoys window shopping anyway. Shopping for me is to get what I want as quick as possible. Which I guess is why I’m prone to impulse buys.

But of course, not being able to see or try the clothes also means that sometimes you get clothes that are either not good in quality or comes in the wrong size. Kind of like gambling. No wonder I’m addicted.

I first started online shopping by joining Taiwan sprees for clothes and accessories. Then I got tired of the waiting time of the sprees. And the quality for most of the clothes was really bad. XiaoMei fashion was one of the worst, followed by Piggy and Tokyo Fashion. Joyce Shop and Queen Shop were slightly better, but not by much. I started dabbling in eBay too, until I bought a Canon lens coffee mug that turned out to be a fake one from China.

I usually buy from the blogshops now. I think HerVelvetVase and allthingslovely are quite good. Catwalkclose is good too, but one of the shirtdress I bought was kind of thin. Dressabelle often sells cute dresses, but the quality varies. Fairebelle has its hits and misses. One of the blouse Ru bought was very poorly made, and it looked nothing like the picture. It was supposed to be one of those cute blouses with a bow at the collar. But when it came, the bow was lopsided and the stitching was uneven. Haven’t bought from them since. Sometimes I kind of wish I can sew better, then I can make my own clothes. Hah.

Orientation

Ever wished that you could speak as fast as you think, or if you could walk as fast as you sprint?

These days I feel like I’m becoming such a gan cheong spider.

I’m also now 2 shades darker since I came back from orientation at OBS. Which is quite disappointing, considering that I slapped on plenty of sunblock.

The two days we spent at Pulau Ubin were pretty fun. I didn’t think I would enjoy myself since I’m not an outdoor person, but I had fun. And I came back in one piece, with only a few scrapes and bruises. Which is good, especially for a person who occasionally sprains her ankle simply from walking.

I’ve also realised that it now takes me much longer to recover from a few nights of little sleep. I couldn’t process my thoughts properly and I found myself babbling and slurring my words. I slept like a log for the past two days after coming back from OBS and even now I still feel lethargic.

梦想

小时候的梦想总是很单纯。

“我的志愿是当警察。”

“我要当厨师。”

“我想拍电影。”

长大后，猛然发现梦想反而变得模糊。

是时间把记忆冲淡？或是现实让我们变得麻木？